Something new

I've been pounding the streets looking for something different, something new I think I'm ready to scale the dizzy heights I want to get my teeth into something a challenge, something to tax my brain. I'm stagnating, just treading water I need to dive into deeper oceans time wont wait for me the grey hairs remind me that it is moving on and it wont slow down. In my head I still feel 21 but my body gives the game away I am middle aged even though I refuse to face up to it. Young girls still catch my eye and I still think I'm in with a chance but then I remember I'm probably old enough to be their dad and I'm left feeling deflated because I know they wont give me a second glance. I need to move on best foot forward new pastures, new horizons, and new goals. I wish I was an artist then I could paint myself a landscape that is more appealing than the one that I'm living in I wish I was a play write then I could write a girl into my life but with me its all talk so nothing ever happens. I'm going to get fit, that's the first step start to eat my five a day and cut down on the booze, I know I drink too much I'm going to start to cook from scratch stop eating the ready meals and the takeaways I've seen Jamie and Gordon on TV how hard can it be? If I start to eat a healthy diet I may have more energy to do the things I want to do and not fall asleep in front of the TV every night. They say everyone has a novel in them so I'm going to write mine it will be easier to find the words now that I've found my muse because now I have focus and I like the way it feels.